Dear Mom,
She's here, Maddie is finally here :) And she is perfect! (but you already knew that!) Todd is sooooo proud...he couldn't keep his eyes off of her :) And Nic- talk about a woman on a mission! She was incredible! So calm and relaxed. I was definitely more frantic and chaotic from excitement! :)
It was bittersweet sitting in the waiting room, mom. I just kept picturing the last time we were there....you and I sat giggling with excitement for Brody to come....and then snapping pics of each other with our silly name tags informing people we were the "favorite aunt" and "proud grandma" after he was born! I made my name tag today just like that one, but no one giggled with me or understood the inside joke. I wanted so badly to hear you laugh until you cried.
But I know you were there. Not even death would keep you from the birth of your grandchild! Nate said you were lucky because you got to see Maddie first since babies come from heaven....I totally agree with him :) At one point, Brooke asked me if you picked who's hair color Maddie would have! (by the way, she thinks you should've given Maddie pink hair since it is a "princess color"!) And of course, I filled in with the random tears of joy that you always shed! I swear I felt like you as I was tearing up walking down the hallway to see Nicole before the baby was even born...and I felt horrible for ever teasing you about it.
Ugh, so many emotions today, mom. You were steady on my brain and heart. Things this joyous and significant are supposed to be shared with loved ones. And as much as I firmly believe you were there, it was rough not physically sharing it with you. I'm sure Todd felt the same way. But I did my best to represent you, mama! I gave the hugs, the tears of happiness, the encouraging words, and the snacks and gifts for the kids just like you would've done! I tried to find a pink musical bear for Maddie like the one you gave Brooke but could only find a musical giraffe...still, it was in tradition and you would've approved its cuteness factor!
Did you hear me talking to Maddie? I promised to help her know all about you and what an awesome grandma you were. And everything else I said I know is true....and I know you'll make sure of it.
I can't say it enough....I miss you, mama, and I love you so incredibly much. Thank you for being MY mom and my foundation. And thank you for loving me with "mother love".
I know I don't have to say it, but be with Todd and Nicole and help them in these first few months. They are great parents, but even the greatest parents need some extra tlc in the beginning ;) Give them a sign and let them know you're there. And keep an eye on Miss Maddie O....I have a feeling she's going to give Todd and Nic a run for their money as all little girls do ;)
I'm out of words for tonight mom, so I'm going to hit the sack. I hope to see you in my dreams and we can talk face to face about your newest little grandbaby....and I can hear you giggle until you cry with me.
Forever XOXO,
Your baby girl
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